[ Almost everyone he cares for he's fucked over. Who is he supposed to call without inflicting his pain on the very people whose pain he's inflicted? ]
Wanda's the only person here who can contain me as I am. If it's too late for one of us to help [ One of us, she'll know who he means but he's going to have to get himself out of that habit - ] she's the final resort.
Fucking me's never sounded like quite so grim a fate. [ But there's no point in snapping at her. It not her he's angry with. ] I'm going to go now. I'll let you know when I know where I'll be. If you don't hear from me, I'll see you next month.
[ That's cruel, but he's feeling too much at once to regulate now. And it's not completely outside of the realm of possibility that he's going to die within the hour, so. ]
I do not have a say in whether or not John Gaius sees fit to end my life, Alicent. I don't have any designs on losing it, but I will not leave him there, and some things are outside of my control.
I let him loose, he healed our wounds, I left him.
[ There is so much unsaid in that brief description that it's almost laughable. But it'll do. He's too raw from it to be more honest, and she only need to know he's well. ]
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It'll be alright. I don't think that was a regular transformation. I'll make sure to reach out to someone if I sense a risk.
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[ so she knows who to call if the worst comes to the worst. ]
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[ Almost everyone he cares for he's fucked over. Who is he supposed to call without inflicting his pain on the very people whose pain he's inflicted? ]
Wanda's the only person here who can contain me as I am. If it's too late for one of us to help [ One of us, she'll know who he means but he's going to have to get himself out of that habit - ] she's the final resort.
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I would prefer if it didn't come down to the final resort.
And so would you.
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Fine. ]
Kovacs.
[ If the worst comes to the worst. ]
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He will do what must be done.
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Fucking me's never sounded like quite so grim a fate. [ But there's no point in snapping at her. It not her he's angry with. ] I'm going to go now. I'll let you know when I know where I'll be. If you don't hear from me, I'll see you next month.
[ That's cruel, but he's feeling too much at once to regulate now. And it's not completely outside of the realm of possibility that he's going to die within the hour, so. ]
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I thought you were too intelligent to fall victim to self-pity, Stephen.
If I don't hear from you, I will see to it personally that the Duchess never releases you from her castle.
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Please be careful.
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You'll hear from me.
[ One way or another. Sooner or later. He'll only leave her in the dark if he has no other choice. ]
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I'm fine. [ In one extremely limited sense of the word: alive, at least. ] Thank you for your concern. I'm sorry for being an asshole about it.
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It's no matter.
Tell me what happened.
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[ There is so much unsaid in that brief description that it's almost laughable. But it'll do. He's too raw from it to be more honest, and she only need to know he's well. ]
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He knew you were not to blame.
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[ That wasn't really what had spared him. But what John did or did not know or feel in those moments isn't his to share. ]
You can stop worrying now. [ About Stephen, at least. ] You'll reach out if you need me?
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I will. Thank you, Stephen.