[ with the Gilia drama and Aemond avoiding her, she's had time to think on her actions. alone. ]
I was upset to learn the truth about Jim. I was jealous. [ it's blunt. spoken like someone who's been regularly confessing her sins from a young age. ]
[ The straightforwardness of the conversation continues to throw him off, and in the face of the admission he ought to try to be kind. But he can't help but ask - ]
You really thought he didn't have anyone else? Here?
Not that I can remember. And I've never asked, because I've never felt it's any of my business who else an unknowable Void launched him into a deeply personal encounter with against any of our wills.
[ A moment, a steadying breath. She's right. And there's no need for him to tear open the wound of their differing perspectives when the point is just that they are different. ]
Have you spoken with him now? [ A beat. ] I won't mind if you don't want to answer that.
If I hear you insinuating again, to me or to anyone, that the value of the relationship two people share might be in any way diminished because those two people are men - or women, or any other arrangement you consider distasteful - the words I have for you will not be civil. And I will not be reaching out to you again.
[ it's humiliating to be lectured by this, but she will admit that he is right. she had no right to speak to him the way she did. things are different here – whether she likes it or not.
she nods even though he can't see it. her words are quiet. ]
I understand.
[ she wants to be worthy of his respect. perhaps even more than she realizes. ]
Yes, but this is silly. What of the other arrangements you made? Home security and protection for the bookshop? Housekeeping should not keep you from those tasks.
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I was upset to learn the truth about Jim. I was jealous. [ it's blunt. spoken like someone who's been regularly confessing her sins from a young age. ]
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You really thought he didn't have anyone else? Here?
cw: is this homophobia
Not another [ she struggles with the word. ] husband.
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In another life.
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Did he tell you about me?
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[ and quick, before he can say anything: ]
But it is no matter. I never asked him either.
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Have you spoken with him now? [ A beat. ] I won't mind if you don't want to answer that.
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[ she draws a breath too. twists her hands together. ]
I have not spoken with him. I felt I had no right to do that after my appalling behavior.
[ she's repenting. how Jim actually feels about it doesn't seem to matter to her right now. ]
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There's one other thing before we put this to bed.
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What is it?
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I'd like to continue to respect you.
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she nods even though he can't see it. her words are quiet. ]
I understand.
[ she wants to be worthy of his respect. perhaps even more than she realizes. ]
I will not do it again.
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[ She sounds sincere. For now, all there is is to hope she can keep her word - so it's settled. Time to move on. ]
Or you'd have to find a new housekeeper.
[ Not that he's been over yet, but that can change now. ]
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You speak of the arrangement you made with Aegon? Please, you need not mind it, Stephen. We will find someone else.
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[ Fair is questionable here, but mutually beneficial? Yes. ]
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That work is beneath you.
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And both are just examples of work anyone with two hands could have done. Where is your sense of ambition?
H HOLD ON
crYINg
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